Random thoughts.
My life has been terribly stagnant for the past couple of weeks. I really had no idea as to what the future has for me. My friends have been already out to the real world, some are grasping their lucks, while some are enjoying their misfortunes. Whichever way I will be seems like pointless at this particular moment. Because right now, nothing really matters. Nothing really matters.
But as I started this journey, I felt relieved. I dont know which part of my heart produced such feeling, perhaps my left ventricle. Another random thought. I have no reason why I said so. It just went into my mind and I am freely using my physicality in trying to express such thought. But it's plainly nothing. Again, I felt relieved.
There are definitely lots of things that should be in my mind right now, employment, relationship, responsibilities, family, etc., but I am feeling really stagnant. Maybe this is the post-trauma of a horrible graduation. I am now taking a deep breath, for no reason, but another relief.
Maybe there's a part of me that is happy as I encode these letters. The part of me which was forgotten, better say neglected, because it was topped by other considered priorities. This part has been keeping me thoughts alive,until I typed them out. This part never failed to convince me that I should put my thoughts back, not using pen and paper anymore, but through this technological innovation. It has been running on for a couple of years,and tried doing it as well. Now, perhaps, I am having a fat schedule where this part of me is fitting in. And I guess this part's effort were all worth it.
My first post is ready now. Starting my frustrations...